March 2011

I am pregnant.

Yes, I am scared.

However,

We have a wonderful team of brilliant Perinatologists.

We met with Dr. Tomlinson on March 28th. He is such a remarkable man. He and a few of the other doctors were with me when Brynn was delivered over 7 years ago. He is optimistic and hopeful, but doesn't sugar coat the facts by any means.

THE FACTS:

There is a 30-50% chance that I will develop severe pre-eclampsia in this pregnancy.

There is a 20-30% chance that I will develop HELLP Syndrome within the pre-eclampsia.

Having a different biological father involved can help the situation, but it can also potentially make it worse.

I am on a specified dose of meds. Some have been proven to help with the rare syndrome. Others have not been proven. There is also a diet I can try called the Brewer's diet. I've been too sick to stick with it up to this point. We are researching more about it.

I've been nauseous and sick. I've puked plenty. I'm on Compozine during the day. Phenrgan at night. It's helping. It's not as bad as it was with my first pregnancy though. Thank goodness.

THE HOPE:

I'm being well monitored. I've had 3 Dr.'s appointments this month and one ultra sound. Everything looks good.

We have had some sweet and reassuring experiences, and I feel peace, in spite of the circumstances.

We did/are doing what we know we were/are supposed to do, and now the rest is in His hands.

What it basically comes down to is this, if I am going to get HELLP Syndrome I will get it. If I'm not, I won't. There are no guarantees. We knew that going into this.

Tomorrow I will be making this blog private, as I have been keeping a detailed log of our experiences over the past 8 months. I will be posting pictures and entries and the stories of prayers, fasting, miscarriages, and how I presented the 'news' to P. Even on video! As you can imagine, this has been a very private and long road, and will continue to be a very long road ahead. But I wanted to make sure that I got to share it with my friends and family. So, send me an email or comment if you'd like to be included on this blogs viewer list!