October 6, 2010

I just had a miscarriage. I was so sick and so tired, then one day I all of the sudden felt great. No nausea, no sleepy eyes, just normal. Two days later I miscarried.

Preston was so helpful through everything. Weeks of helping me and the kids when I was too sick. "Dressing" and "doing Brynn's hair." Poor man was so sweet and patient with everything girl.

We were both heavily disappointed when I started to miscarry. I'm grateful we have each other though. I'm grateful for the few people who knew the situation that helped me through it. Thank you. It will happen when and how it is supposed to. We know this.

September 22, 2010

SO FAR:

I threw up 8 times last Saturday
Dry heaved on Monday.
So dizzy. 24/7

OTHERWISE:

moody minor headaches breast tenderness dreams frequent urinating

abdominal pressure cravings aversions everything smells

.I'M PREGNANT.

September 10, 2010

More often than not, the thought of having a baby (via my body) terrifies me. Last week I woke up in the middle of the night worrying about it. I immediately had a strong feeling to go to the Temple. That morning I went. A few things stood out to me in particular.

One of which was this brief, but moving thought/experience, "Rochelle, you are willing to do anything for the children you have here on earth; those sweet Spirits born to you as a gift from your Father in Heaven. Most mothers would do ANYTHING for the children
they have been blessed with here in this life.

Anything.

Everything.

You would give your life for your children. Now I ask you, what are you willing to do for the ones, your children, that haven't come to earth yet?
The ones waiting patiently--up here, with Me?'

This is something I'd never thought of or considered. Actively looking at my children on BOTH sides changed so many things for me that day.

I am grateful for the temple, for prayer, and for personal revelation.